I have tried three times to write this post and I find it so hard. Last Monday morning, I lost my dear, old companion and friend of the last sixteen years, Barney.
If you know me, you will know just how important he was to me and just how bereft I am feeling. I am grieving, my heart is broken and it hurts. He was more than just a dog, he was my baby. I would not swap any of the last sixteen years at all and I knew at some point this would be the difficult part, the worst part for me was deciding when it had to end and I am struggling to forgive myself for making the ultimate decision to end his life. That's the bit that really hurts. I so wanted him to drift off in his sleep, but it just didn't happen and I'm left with the guilt.
I could not have had a better friend and companion through the last 16 years. I will love and miss him always and I have a hole in my heart just for him.
RIP Barney Jan 1998 - Feb 2014 xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx